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CHAPTER XXIX
 One Saturday afternoon towards the end of February, he suddenly decided1 to read through so much of the draft novel as was written; hitherto he had avoided any sort of revision. The resolve to accomplish five hundred words a day had been kept indifferently well, and the total stood at about fourteen thousand. As he wrote a very bold hand, the sheets covered made quite a respectable pile. The mere2 bulk of them cajoled him, in spite of certain misgivings3, into an optimistic surmise4 as to their literary quality. Never before had he written so much upon one theme, and were the writing good or bad, he was, for a few moments, proud of his achievement. The mischief5 lay in the fact that week by week he had exercised less and still less care over the work. The phrase, "Anything will do for a draft," had come to be uttered with increasing frequency as an excuse for laxities of style and construction. "I will make that right in the revision," he had reassured6 himself, and had gone negligently7 forward, leaving innumerable crudities in the wake of his hurrying pen. During the last few days he had written scarcely anything, and perhaps it was a hope of stimulating8 a drooping9 inspiration by the complacent10 survey of work actually done that tempted11 him to this hazardous12 perusal13.  
He whistled as he took up the manuscript, as a boy whistles when going into a dark cellar. The first three pages were read punctiliously14, every word of them, but soon he grew hasty, rushing to the next paragraph ere the previous one was grasped; then he began shamelessly to skip; and then he stopped, and his heart seemed to stop also. The lack of homogeneity, of sequence, of dramatic quality, of human interest; the loose syntax; and the unrelieved mediocrity of it all, horrified15 him. The thing was dry bones, a fiasco. The certainty that he had once more failed swept over him like a cold, green wave of the sea, and he had a physical feeling of sickness in the stomach.... It was with much ado that he refrained from putting the whole manuscript upon the fire, and crushing it venomously into the flames with a poker16. Then he steadied himself. His self-confidence was going, almost gone; he must contrive17 to recover it, and he sought for a way. (Where were now the rash exultations of the New Year?) It was impossible that his work should be irredeemably bad. He remembered having read somewhere that the difference between a fine and a worthless novel was often a difference of elaboration simply. A conscientious18 re-writing, therefore, might probably bring about a surprising amelioration. He must immediately make the experiment. But he had long since solemnly vowed19 not to commence the second writing till the draft was done; the moral value of finishing even the draft had then seemed to him priceless. No matter! Under stress of grievous necessity, that oath must be forsworn. No other course could save him from collapse20.
 
He went out into the streets. The weather, fine and bright, suggested the earliest infancy21 of spring, and Piccadilly was full of all classes and all ages of women. There were regiments22 of men, too, but the gay and endless stream of women obsessed23 him. He saw them sitting in hansoms and private carriages and on the tops of omnibuses, niched in high windows, shining in obscurity of shops, treading the pavements with fairy step, either unattended or by the side of foolish, unappreciative males. Every man in London seemed to have the right to a share of some woman's companionship, except himself. As for those men who walked alone, they had sweethearts somewhere, or mothers and sisters, or they were married and even now on the way to wife and hearth24. Only he was set apart.
 
A light descended25 upon him that afternoon. The average man and the average woman being constantly thrown into each other's society, custom has staled for them the exquisite27 privilege of such intercourse28. The rustic29 cannot share the townsman's enthusiasm............
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