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Chapter 29
ROSE had come for a purpose, Vidal saw, to which she would make but a bound, and she seemed in fact to take the spring as she instantly broke out: “For what did you come back to me? for what did you come back?” She approached him quickly, but he made, more quickly, a move that gained him space and that might well have been the result of two sharp impressions: one of these the sense that in a single hour she had so altered as to be ugly, without a trace of the charm that had haunted him; and the other the sense that, thus ravaged and dis figured, wrecked in the gust that had come and gone, she required of him something that she had never required. A monstrous reality flared up in their relation, the perception of which was a shock that he was conscious for the moment of betraying that he feared, finding no words to answer her and showing her, across the room, while she repeated her question, a face blanched by the change in her own. “ For what did you come back to me? for what did you come back? ”

He gaped at her; then as if there were help for him in the simple fact that on his own side he could immediately recall, he stammered out: “ To you to you? I hadn’t the slightest notion you were here! ”

“Didn’t you come to see where I was? Didn’t you come absolutely and publicly for me?” He jerked round again to the window with the vague, wild gesture of a man in horrible pain, and she went on without vehemence, but with clear, deep inten sity: “ It was exactly when you found I was here that you did come back. You had a perfect chance, on learning it, not to show; but you didn’t take the chance, you quickly put it aside. You reflected, you decided, you insisted we should meet.” Her voice, as if in harmony with the power of her plea, dropped to a vibration more muffled, a soft but inexorable pressure. “ I hadn’t called you, I hadn’t troubled you, I left you as perfectly alone as I’ve been alone. It was your own passion and your own act you’ve dropped upon me, you’ve over whelmed me. You’ve overwhelmed me, I say, because I speak from the depths of my surrender. But you didn’t do it, I imagine, to be cruel, and if you didn’t do it to be cruel you did it to take what it would give you.” Gradually, as she talked, he faced round again; she stood there supported by the high back of a chair, either side of which she held tight. “You know what I am, if any man has known, and it’s to the thing I am whatever that is you’ve come back at last from so far. It’s the thing I am whatever that is I now count on you to stand by.”

“Whatever that is?” Dennis mournfully mar-veiled. “ I feel, on the contrary, that I’ve never, never known! ”

“Well, it’s before anything a woman who has such a need as no woman has ever had.” Then she eagerly added: “ Why on earth did you descend on me if you hadn’t need of me? ”

Dennis took for an instant, quite as if she were not there, several turns in the wide place; moving in the dumb distress of a man confronted with the greatest danger of his life and obliged, while pre cious minutes lapse, to snatch at a way of safety. His whole air was an instinctive retreat from being carried by assault, and he had the effect both of keeping far from her and of revolving blindly round her. At last, in his hesitation, he pulled up before her. “ What makes, all of a sudden, the tremendous need you speak of? Didn’t you remind me but an hour ago of how remarkably low, at our last meeting, it had dropped? ”

Rose’s eyes, in the dimness, widened with their wonder. “ You can speak to me in harshness of what I did an hour ago? You can taunt me with an act of penance that might have moved you that did move you? Does it mean,” she continued, “ that you’ve none the less embraced the alternative that seems to you most worthy of your courage? Did I only stoop, in my deep contrition, to make it easier for you to knock me down? I gave you your chance to refuse me, and what you’ve come back for then will have been only, most handsomely, to take it. In that case you did injustice there to the question of your revenge. What fault have you to find with anything so splendid? ”

Dennis had listened with his eyes averted, and he met her own again as if he had not heard, only bringing out his previous words with a harder iteration: “ What makes your tremendous need? what makes your tremendous need?” he spoke as if that tone were the way of safety. “ I don’t in the least see why it should have taken such a jump. You must do justice, even after your act of this afternoon a demonstration far greater than any I dreamed of asking of you you must do justice to my absolute necessity for seeing everything clear. I didn’t there in the garden see anything clear at all I was only startled and wonder-struck and puzzled. Certainly I was touched, as you say I was so touched that I particularly suffered. But I couldn’t pretend I was satisfied or gratified, or even that I was particularly convinced. You often failed of old, I know, to give me what I really wanted from you, and yet it never prevented the success of your effect on what shall I call it?” He stopped short. “ On God knows what baser, obscurer part of me! I’m not such a brute as to say,” he quickly went on, “ that that effect was not produced this afternoon ”

“You confine yourself to saying,” Rose inter rupted, “ that it’s not produced in our actual situa tion.”

He stared through the thicker dusk; after which, “I don’t understand you!” he dropped. “ I do say,” he declared, “that, whatever your success to day may be admitted to consist of, I didn’t at least then make the admission. I didn’t at that moment understand you any more than I do now; and I don’t think I said anything to lead you to suppose I did. I showed you simply that I was bewildered, and I couldn’t have shown it more than by the abrupt way I left you. I don’t recognise that I’m committed to anything that deprives me of the right of asking you for a little more light.”

“Do you recognise by chance,” Rose returned, “the horrible blow?”

“That has fallen on all this wretched place? I’m unutterably shocked by it. But where does it come into our relations? ”

Rose smiled in exquisite pity, which had the air, however, of being more especially for herself. “You say you were painfully affected; but you really invite me to go further still. Haven’t I put the dots on all the horrid i’s and dragged myself through the dust of enough confessions? ”

Dennis slowly and grimly shook his head; he doggedly clung to his only refuge. “ I don’t under stand you I don’t understand you.”

Rose, at this, surmounted her scruples. “ It would be inexpressibly horrible to me to appear to be free to profit by Mr. Bream’s misfortune.”

Dennis thought a moment. “ To appear, you mean, to have an interest in the fact that the death of his daughter leaves him at liberty to invite you to become his wife? ”

“You express it to admiration.”

He discernibly wondered. “ But why should you be in danger of that torment to your delicacy if Mr. Bream has the best of reasons for doing nothing to contribute to it? ”

“The best of Mr. Bream’s reasons,” Rose re joined, “won’t be nearly so good as the worst of mine.”

“That of your making a match with some one else? I see,” her companion............
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